Oh, Canada!

As I proudly sewed my Canadian flag patches onto my backpacks I realized that tomorrow I will be in South America, Lima, Peru to be specific. My house is packed and moved to it's temporary housing (thanks Greg! xo) and my Peru packing is done too. Now I am going to hang out with some of my best friends before Ryan takes me to Pearson tomorrow.

I am scared. And excited.

I want to grow and learn. I want to be.

John Mayer?

My Stupid Mouth - John Mayer

"My stupid mouth has got me in trouble, I've said too much again"

Say - John Mayer

"It's better to say too much, then never to say what you need to say again"

So on one hand, you've said too much and screwed everything up. On the other hand say what you need to say because you might not be able to say it again.

Well fuck.

I suppose my reality is that I should think before I speak and make my own decisions about what and how I say things.

I am packing my things for Peru and Calgary and it's overwhelming.

Fin

I hurt everywhere. There is a 1/2 bowl of KD and a full glass of water beside my bed.

Yesterday I made some of the best memories I will ever have. I also wrote the the last university exam of my undergrad. I could not ask for better people have spent this part of my life with. I have made amazing forever friends.

I don't think it has really hit me that after 4 months of work I will not be coming back to school as I have with all of my co-op terms. It also hasn't really set in that I am going to Peru on Monday.

Doubt

Unless you are some kind of dictator, extreme left wing, extreme right wing, or some kind of fundamentalist or fanatic you are always going to be living in a state of doubt. It is how you manage that doubt that will determine whether you have a happy life or not.

- Maurice B. Dusseault

Calgary

Hello Calgary. Let's be friends.

Road Trip

Bring on The Beatles, the Red Hot Chili Peppers, Chris Rea and so much more. My dad and I are going on a road trip.

Mom 'n' Dad

I love my parents. Over the Christmas break we all celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary. Sometimes, things have been rough. Really rough, and that's no secret. But you know what? Sometimes things are great. They raised to beautiful children (if I do say so myself), especially Derek, he's the BOMB.

My parents have sacrificed a lot. My dad sold his prized car when the kids rolled around and my parents together sacrificed any beach vacations for family camping in Salmon Arm. I could list of lots of things that my parents gave up (their living space, their sanity, hours of sleep...). I am so fortunate to have the parents I do.

Mom and Dad, I love you.

Stay Classy

That Ain't Classy - Classified

I am not a rapper. I am not going to be making millions. However, I have accepted an EIT job in Calgary. It's easy to start wanting things. Nice things. It's easy to not be humble.

I need to check my ego at the door and make sure I stay classy.

Puppies

Yesterday I went to a TFC game with Ryan and it was really good. I am going to miss him a lot when I move. A cool highlight was that they were playing LA so I got to see David Beckham which was pretty cool. The best part for me was when they do the coin toss a local team gets to come out with the players and participate. It was really endearing. I also got to have some quality time to catch up with Ryan. Again, going to miss him a lot when I peace out of Ontario.

On another note, Ryan's mom has two 5 and 1/2 month old puppies. Starting at 8:45ish in a vain attempt to tire them I took them both for a walk and when I got back I took the more wired of the two (Affectionately named Wylee Cyotee, or Wylee for short) for a run. Then we played in the back yard.

I think they are finally exhausted (time - 10:34)

As far as getting my own dog, I am committed to at least 30 minutes of walking or running outside every day for 6/7 days a week for three months before I even think about getting a dog. I also want to get settled in my job, my house and a new city before I introduce any K9s to my life.

Ok, now they are settled a bit. I don't know what I was thinking when I brought my Water Quality Engineering course notes with me here, thinking to myself that I would totally be able to study and not cuddle, play with and walk the pups all day.

Geotech Exam Tomorrow

This is how I feel.^

This is how I want to be feeling ^

I am feeling a severe disconnect.

let it go

The more I see,

The less I know,

The more I like to let it go

-Red Hot Chili Peppers

For me sometimes I feel like it should be like this:

The more I see,

The less I know,

The more I learn to let it go.

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The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness

-Don Henley

What can I take from these two lyrics? The more you know the more you realize that you know nothing. Forgive people, forgive yourself, and let things go.

Just let things go.

Let it go.

Breathe.

Cats and Good Books

I spent most of my day yesterday doing geotech assignments, studying and getting ready for exams.

However, after that, I went book shopping with a lovely friend. We got Starbucks (green tea latte - mmmmmmm), then had a peruse around Chapters. I treated myself to three books:

Animal Farm - George Orwell

Brave New World - Aldous Huxley

The Giver - Lowis Lowry

When I got home, I made myself a stir fry with awesome veggies and fresh pineapple. After I ate I curled up and read Animal Farm while I listened to my neighbours purring cat asleep on the top of my couch.

I hope that after the insanity of school I can have more evenings like this.

Love, Cereal and Calgary

I learned something interesting in March. After a brew or two there are two things that I text to people that I care about.

1. I tell people that I care about that I love them. This probably isn't shocking to anyone - I am affectionate towards my best friends.

2. I tell people I care about that I love Cheerios. Usually it's spelled verrioossssss or cheerrixxooosssss, but the main message is there. I don't know what it is, but if I really care about you, I have probably told you about my love for that certain brand/kind of cereal. In fact, I am much more exclusive with telling people about Cheerios then I am about saying "I love you".

I find number two very interesting. In fact, all three people I have texted to about Cheerios I have apologized to afterwards. Mainly because it's not really a message that seems to them to have particular meaning and probably gets annoying. However, if you happen to be reading this, know that it's because I think you're awesome that you get those messages. Also, if I haven't texted you about Cheerios please don't be offended, it isn't that I don't love you. If I have, know that you hold some kind of special place in my intoxicated heart.

Now onto the Calgary bit. I interviewed for a job in Calgary on Friday. This has spurred on a rush of things, such as fear of the "real world". I am soon going to be thrust into the adult world. In some ways I am really excited and in other ways I am completely terrified.

Life choices. Sweet.

p.s. Seriously Cheerios are amazing. Honey Nut style.